Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Pregnant @ 40!?!

I found out on 12/9/09 via 4 home pregnancy tests that I'm pregnant. I'm still in shock because I had a traumatic miscarriage last year on 12/5/08. My husband and I had been trying to have a baby for an entire year. I had given up hoping for another child and accepted the fact that we would never have a child together. In Vegas, while at the ER for a migraine, a med student suggested I take Tagamet to reduce my testosterone levels and maybe that would help me get pregnant. Probably the end of October or beginning of November 1 started taking Tagamet and less than a month later, I'm pregnant! It's nothing short of miraculous to me.

The weeks of waiting to find out if this pregnancy is viable will be agony. I'm happy but also in a daze. I don't want to get too attached in case I have another miscarriage. I'm eating right and resting since this is a high risk pregnancy. I never felt this good the last two times I was pregnant so I hope that's a good sign.

Normally I keep a journal but all my journals were stolen by my "family" so I feel the need to document electronically for my baby. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best.


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      Wednesday, November 18, 2009

      Stickers R US, LTD., 14820 Woodforest Blvd., Channelview, TX 77530

      NEVER TAKE YOUR CAR HERE!!!! I made the colossal mistake of taking my car to Stickers R US to get an inspection sticker and a teenaged idiot damaged my car pulling parts off! He was at it over an hour under my hood then told me I needed new bulbs. He put the bulbs in WRONG and then told me my car wouldn't pass inspection!

      I had just spent $400 on my car before a cross country trip and had no problems until I pulled into this shack! This place is managed and owned by white trash cousin fucking retards! I spoke to the so called manager who exclaimed through a partial set of teeth, "We ain't responsible for damages. Your car was broke when you brought it in!" Then she told me to get out of her shop. Nice!

      I never see any customers outside. I think this place may be a storefront for a meth lab. Definitely shady activities going on here.

      Tuesday, September 15, 2009

      pictures

       I used to be the ultimate shutterbug. My friends hated taking pictures. I've grown tired of it but here are some photos I found. I lost all my pictures in a move and hope to retrieve them.
       
       


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          Wednesday, August 19, 2009

          Some of my favorite things including other blogs

          Today I had an awesome day since in a state office which I won't name. You know how it goes. Nobody wants to be there and they all look like a group of carnies. It's a waking nightmare. I amuse myself by giving strangers nick names and my scenario of their lives. Every woman there is pregnant or carrying a newborn but me. I feel like a reproductive failure. A mutant. Last December I had a miscarriage and caught the baby in my hand in the ER restroom. I was literally holding the amniotic sack and it was moving! The heart was still beating. I remember a primal scream but I didn't think it came from me. It was one of those times where you are standing outside yourself watching the events like a movie. I ran out of the bathroom screaming, "What is this?" I was totally devastated. I feel I should be over this by now but I'm not. I don't know if I ever will be over it.

          For some reason total strangers always feel the need to tell me their life stories. The girl sitting next to me was of course pregnant. She was 23, her boyfriend is 30. Three kids by two other women and she is enduring a high risk pregnancy, cooking and cleaning and caring for his children. She tells me she had a miscarriage last year when she was 5 months pregnant. It was devastating. She went to the hospital for an ultrasound and after 30 minutes, the doctor tells her, "By the way, the baby isn't living." They do surgery to remove the "deteriorated fetus." She said it took her one year to get pregnant again. She tells me she thinks she only ovulates once a year in February. She says it took her an entire year to get pregnant again. She said she had sex 3 times a day everyday for a year. Definitely didn't need to know that.

          Now her Egyptian boyfriend is telling her she's fat and unattractive. He's a keeper. I guess the look on my face signaled my sadness and or disgust for what she endured and she said, "I know, when I talk about my life out loud, I can't believe it turned out this way." The only thing that disgusted me was how her boyfriend talks to her. I said everybody feels that way. I said he's probably just worried you are too attractive for him and will leave him. When I saw you standing in line I thought how pretty you were and you are still skinny eight months pregnant. I wish I looked that good when I was pregnant. She seemed to really need some kind words and I was happy I could provide them.

          Then she tells me she can't work due to the high risk pregnancy and was $2,000 from paying her car off. Her boyfriend refused to help her pay her car payment and it was repossessed. That was the detail that confirmed he's a total bastard in my book. She was rereading "To Kill a Mockingbird" so she wasn't a total dumbass. Then she tells me one of her bf's baby mama's is doing internet porn in her house with the kid there! She said we can't do anything because her mom is a cop. She only said she would make her stop doing it in her house. Joy! Good parenting. She's trying to wean this 3 year old from a bottle and potty train her.

          I hope things work out for her but I'm not optimistic, I've outgrown optimism. Now I'm a realist. I know I've put up with far too much BS from men in my life. Womanhood is difficult even on the best of terms.




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              Sunday, August 16, 2009

              What is the purpose of Facebook?

              I've been on Facebook and myspace for a while now and I'm bored with both of them. At first it's nice to find people you haven't seen in forever or old high school classmates. Then if you get into some debates about politics or religion you remember why you haven't keep in touch with some people. Some people never evolve. Some people devolve. I just told a friend yesterday that I'm going to stop posting intelligent comments because Republican zealots spend their time posting ignorant hate speech. My pal reminded me of the butterfly effect and said my voice of reason makes a difference. I seriously doubt it at this point.

              It seems to me that people who have remained in their home towns have a narrower world view than those of us who have traveled and had other experiences. A lot of them seem to have a right wing racist mentality which is a huge disappointment. One would think that people would grow up after twenty plus years of living but I don't see it. I take joy in correcting their spelling and grammar mistakes. It infuriates them. They were and continue to be incapable of an intelligent argument in person and that translates into writing. They seem to think that poverty relates to laziness or bad morals.

              One old class mate, Belinda Knoblock Turk is a total dumbass, racist and hypocrite. She mentioned Obama's race. Anytime you can't produce a rational argument you bring race into it and destroy any intelligent points you wanted to mention if you had any and she doesn't. This blathering idiot then says something about her pool boy being white, a citizen and buying his own health insurance. Like the rest of the lemmings, she needs to jump off a cliff.

              I wonder if the facebook creator intended this type of racism and ignorance to be spread all over the Internet. Perhaps it's just a sociological experiment to gauge the attitudes of Americans. I'm not sure. All those virtual smiles, hugs, farms, Mafia Wars are all a huge waste of time.




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                  Sunday, August 09, 2009

                  Jackson Toxicology Report -- Propofol Plus ...

                  As soon as I heard Michael Jackson was dead I literally said it was a drug overdose. It's sad that anyone gives their life over to drugs. Having a relation with these problems gives me a deeper understanding about the desperate acts of an addict. Drugs are bad people (in my best South Park imitation) Anyone who watched that show in 2003 should have realized he was a hard core drug addict. The segment where he's feeding blanket and shaking his legs with the junkie itch and twitching legs is a giveaway. What other person forces their children to wear masks and dangles them over balconies? Head on over to www.thesmokinggun.com to read court papers in the child molestation case. It's sickening and that ladies and gentlemen is what ended the fan portion of my Michael Jackson admiration. To me there is nothing worse than a pedophile. Experts say they can't be cured even when they are chemically castrated, they use objects to abuse children! Neverland was the ultimate kid magnet and when he paraded the kid who was a cancer patient around on that special it literally made me vomit. And what about Chris Tucker accompanying MJ on his private jet and plying children with "Jesus Juice"? Nobody called him on his behavior. No charges were filed against him. I'm done with him too.

                  The thing I find most interesting is that this is the same Dr. that was treating James Brown when he died. I'd like to learn more about that aspect of the case. In my opinion James Brown was more important in terms of musical history and strides for black performers. It's natural to assume that MJ didn't have much cultural pride. He transformed himself into a white Diana Ross. His children are all white and til the end he insisted they were his biological children when it's obvious they aren't. A parent doesn't have to be a biological parent and it's just bizarre that he would continue to insist they were his bio kids. That had to do with his trying to portray himself as a heterosexual. If you're ashamed of your sexuality then you are doing things you consider shameful. Besides that really wasn't anyone's business but his own except when he brought children to his bed. WRONG, WRONG AND WRONG!

                  Also, having seen both performers in concert multiple times, I was more in awe of James Brown in his 60's doing the splits than I was by MJ at any age. He peaked with Thriller and could never top it. His spending was out of control and that level of excess is disgusting when people in America and around the world are starving. He's the one who sang, "If you wanna make the world a better place look at yourself and make a change..." Sad that he didn't follow his own advice.

                  The doctor's office in Houston is in a neighborhood known for clinics for "pill doctors". These doctors don't really treat anyone. You takes your cash and you gets your pills after a mock exam.

                  Were 3 autopsies really necessary? Let me guess, the 3rd one will be released and it will say he died of natural causes at 50? That seems like a move to create a story so they can try to salvage his reputation and plant him at Neverland and sell tickets.

                  Giving the kids to their 79 year old grandmother is something that would NEVER transpire in any family court if money didn't change hands. It's not fair to the kids but then again has any part of their lives been fair? They were just live toys for him to play with! Nobody has reported anything about what type of education they have received. Noting his paranoia, I seriously don't he would allow them to leave home to attend school in a traditional setting. I also read that he was going to get them implanted with microchips like pets so he could track their location online! I hope that's not true.

                  I read somewhere that MJ was supporting his Mom but since his death she's been living on Social Security since he didn't provide any money for her to raise his children. She had to go to court to ask for money from the estate because his trustees who are an attorney and a music executive! The court delayed it's decision. If you can't trust them, who can you trust? It didn't matter to him. All that mattered for at least 25 years was drugs and that's sad.

                  The saddest thing to report is that's probably the best thing that could have happened to his kids. Now they can lead a somewhat normal life. Did you see where they went to Disneyland with their cousins WITHOUT security?! I guess they had to since he didn't leave money to provide for that or even for food, clothing or shelter.



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                  Saturday, August 08, 2009

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                  Friday, August 07, 2009

                  The purpose of my blog

                  The purpose of my blog is to illuminate people about everything. I'm generally considered a culture maven in most circles be they large or small. I'm your go to gal in just about any area. I have a wide base of knowledge and Facebook classifies me as a Grammar Nazi!

                  I was a newspaper reporter in high school and college, a yearbook editor, a feature writer and a top reviewer on sidewalk.com before it merged into citysearch.com and my witty reviews disappeared into cyberspace. I'm opinionated but I can back up my stance on an issue, product or business and hopefully spare someone else my agony in the process.

                  I'm on twitter, facebook, yelp, MySpace, yelp you name it, I'm on there bitching about something or someone who can and should do a better job. As you have surely guessed by now, I am a Type A personality but I have calmed considerably in the last few years.

                  I'm irked/peeved/pissed about bad drivers, corrupt city officials, dead beat dads and moms, baby mama drama, baby daddy drama, illiteracy, apathy, bad manners, poor taste, low morals and a list too long to mention. However, I can remark on these issues and many more with with, humor and style.

                  Join me on this ride to discuss the economy and all that it brings to the table. I may seem unfocused at times but that's just the ADHD keeping me moving on to the next big idea.

                  I hope you enjoy my observations and you are moved enough to comment. I'm trying to consolidate my old blogs here so please be patient.


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                      Gotta Love Twit Pics!

                      I must admit that I Love Twit Pics due to the appeal of photos like the ones at the end of Rain Man! I wish everyone would do as I do and take pictures of interesting things during their daily lives. One must take joy in the little things and endeavor to persevere (Chief Dan George).









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                        Mistaking Kindness for Weakness

                        Recently I have encountered may people who mistake kindness for weakness. This is a colossal mistake in judgment and brings to mind the statement, "Beware the fury of a patient man."

                        I understand how many cynical people populate this world but once in a while people, good people actually do things to be nice. When this happens rather than taking advantage you should pay it forward and do something nice for someone else. This would make the world a better place and what could be better than that?

                        Think about it.


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                            Saturday, August 01, 2009

                            Lisa Marie Presley had twin girls in October 2008?

                            I just read online TODAY that Lisa Marie Presley had twin girls on October 7, 2008! That one escaped me, probably because I was pregnant myself at the time and didn't know it. I was exhausted and hibernating like a bear in winter and didn't find out I was pregnant until October 23, 2008. We're roughly the same age and I also was thrilled to be gestating. However, due to my non-celebrity status, M.D.s were not concerned about my miscarriage risk and allowed me to have one.

                            I'm glad her daughters are healthy. Forty doesn't seem so old anymore.


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                                Friday, July 24, 2009

                                Modern Technology

                                I was just thinking how much easier and invasive technology has become in the last 10 years. It's amazing to think how much one can do and view from a cell phone or computer that nobody ever thought possible in 1999. Back then we were all worried about the Y2K computer glitch that never happened.

                                Now kids are cyber stalking and bullying each other over the Internet. Aren't we advanced? Being a travel agent is no longer a viable option if you wish to pay your bills thanks to the Internet.

                                Some things are good in the name of progress but I can't think of any in my current state of mind. What is amazing to me is how low some people become due to this piss poor excuse for an economy.

                                Please someone sent me some good things to remind me why I've become a slave to my computer and cell phone.


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                                    Monday, March 16, 2009

                                    Twitter

                                    OK, I've been hearing stuff about Twitter for months so I just signed up. I'm trying to post my twitter updates here and it gives me an error message, I HATE THAT!

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